let the ramblings begin

Today I decided to start blogging, as this seems like the only way to decompress and let out all these crazy thoughts I have. As I looked through the various blogs that I've started and left behind ...not able to figure out how to use it or not willing. I felt the title of this blog was a fitting one for the thoughts I want to get down. So, that said I am going to start writing when I want to explore the ravings going through my head.... which reminds me... there is this girl named Ravyn who is here in Ramallah, she is married to a palestinian and I really like her name! She is inspirational in a few other ways too. She seems like the kind of mom I was when I only had two kids. She is a yoga instructor, tries to eat organic or raw and although we have only met once, I'm sure we would get along splendidly. Now how was that for nonsensical raving? LOL So, I watched Evita last night and sat there watching it and singing my heart out, poor Cola had invited his friends over (yes I said friends wahoo! After a year with no one, he is now a very popular kid) to watch the Barcelona game... I'm sure they wondered who was strangling madonna in my bedroom lol. Anyway it made me miss my sisters so much! I remembered driving by target in orem in my pink geo tracker... belting out Evita...oblivious (at least consciously) to my sweet sisters mourning the loss of my innocence and youth in the backseat! I love you guys and hate the distance! Not sure why everytime I try to write something I end up writing it to my sisters ... I guess just because they know... they get me .....they understand what I am saying and probably more accurately I am writing to a part of myself, which I refer to as "them". If anyone ever reads this I'm sure they will feel the need to send me to the state hospital lol.